Julien Baker

Turn Out the Lights

by Ollie Braddy on the 5th November 2017

Julien Baker exposes the harsh realities of her mental health struggles with rawness and painstaking detail.

Matador | 2017

On ‘Over’, Julien Baker’s self-proclaimed “overture” and opening track for her second LP Turn Out the Lights, the constant shifting between major and minor keys sets the scene for the next 40 minutes: a beautiful exploration of the highs and lows that define her relationships: with loved ones, her faith and her own mental health. The album’s narrative, almost entirely autobiographical, exposes us to the harshest realities of living with anxiety and depression but introduces Baker’s newfound optimism that such burdens don’t necessarily eliminate all joy.

It’s been two years since Baker’s first album Sprained Ankle was released, and whilst the production has got slicker and the backing more embellished (there are now string and woodwind accompaniments present on 7 of the 11 tracks), the influence of Sprained Ankle’s success hasn’t detracted from the rawness and painstaking detail that make it so. Standout tracks ‘Appointments’ and ‘Televangelist’ highlight Baker’s unique clarity and really bring us to the heart of what it is to live life with mental health issues. Lines flow into each other, both musically and lyrically, alluding to a manic fluidity of her thoughts, yet they’re contained within an exquisitely peaceful sonic arena of melodic piano/guitar and sweeping vocals.

Throughout the album, we see Baker struggling to reconcile turbulent opposites. On the brooding ‘Sour Breath’ we hear the repeating observation “the harder I swim, the faster I sink” and in ‘Shadowboxing’ we’re told “You’re everything I want, and I’m all that you dread” all of which echo her attempts to reconcile her mental health issues with her ability to be happy. However, in the album’s tremendous finale, ‘Claws in Your Back’, Baker proclaims, “I think I can love the sickness you made, I want it to stay” – a heartfelt statement about the peace she has now found.